Mandira Bedi about coping with the death of husband Raj Kaushal: Grief has no abbreviations, but we celebrate | Hindi Movie News

In a recent conversation, Mandira Bedi thought about the pain of losing her husband filmmaker Raj Kaushal, who died at the age of 50 heart attack. According to reports, she announced that navigating through grief was a very personal journey that did not offer abbreviations. The actress and TV presenter opened up how the first year after his death for her and her two children Vir and Tara was the most difficult when they tried to cope with the profound loss.While he spoke on the YouTube channel The Full Circle, Mandira is said to have expressed how emotionally the first year – from the celebration from birthdays to permanent anniversaries and festivals such as Diwali. These milestones, she said, brought a wave of grief and often left it to close and cry for hours. Every “first” without Raj was described as a challenge that she had no choice but to endure.According to reports, she also spoke about how her daughter Tara had spent a few months with Raj before his death after she was only adopted 8-9 months earlier. However, her son Vir had shared a deep bond with his father, and his heartache ran deep. Mandira remembered that he never prevented him from expressing his grief and said that she had rejected outdated ideas like “boys not crying”. Instead, she encouraged him to let his feelings flow free and to believe that only one day they could remember Raj with smile instead of tears.

Mandira continued to share that, although they followed a one-month and one-year-old Puja, not Raj's anniversary of death as the day of sadness. Accordingly, she asked what to win to capture such sad memories. Instead of dealing with the loss, she preferred to honor Raj every year on his birthday and organize a special Puja, followed by lunch with his favorite dishes. This Sunday lunch, surrounded by friends and laughter, was her way of celebrating his life.She also admitted that although she still feels a feeling of sadness on the anniversary of his death, she doesn't want her children to grow up the day with grief. Instead, she wants her to remember her father's joy and legacy that he has left behind.According to reports, Mandira also revealed a deeply personal ritual that she has followed every day since Raj's death – and offered him a prayer. In these calm moments, she thanks him for her children, the home they share, and the systems that he made in place. She even apologizes for the difficult times in her marriage and shows how love, loss and healing exist on her journey forward.